Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Looking forward

Looking forward to the Spring semester  :)  I met with my advisor (Miriam) today, and now I know what classes I'm going to take:  Photography V, Intro to Fiction, Grammar of Modern English, Advanced Journalism, and Theory and Business of Translation.

I've been waiting to take Intro to Fiction for some time now---I really wanted that for foundation before taking the Fiction Writing Workshop---and I'm glad it finally fit my schedule  :)

And I've waited forever for Grammar!  It didn't fit my schedule the last time Dr. Brooks offered it, but I bought the text anyway and worked through it on my own, and I absolutely loved sentence trees  :)  I'll finally get to actually take the class in Spring!

In the Losses Column, the German Capstone class is not being offered, as Frau Gross has to teach Business German instead  :(  Hence Translation, which counts as a German class as well, even though Dr. Pichot teaches it in English.

The other two classes---Photography with Dana and Journalism with Rob---are continuations of what I'm already taking ...  Something else happened at the end of the advising meeting:  Miriam asked me to take whatever I wanted from the left half of her bookshelf.  She's giving away much of her library because she's retiring at the end of this semester ...  This was my last advising meeting with her  :(  I took nine books (all on how to write).

And that seemed to be the theme for the rest of the day:  Later in the afternoon, when my red pen ran out of ink in the middle of grading, Sr. Ann gave me one of hers, and she added that she could spare it because she's going to retire at the end of the Spring semester!

So my teachers are retiring, and my colleagues are retiring, and, looking forward, I'm trying to visualize when I will retire ...

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

I wish

If unfulfilled wishes were pounds, I'd be the world's biggest man.

And it's not as though I don't do anything about my wishes either.  I've been religiously waiting for 11:11 and making a wish every time for ever now (that's, like, for more than two years), but my wishes have just not been coming true  :(

So I did a little research on the theory of wishing today, and I actually made some progress, so I'm posting my results as my blog entry for the day.  I'm a mathematician, so when I say "research" I don't mean "google search" (I mean drawing oversized calculus symbols with a pencil on the back of an old envelope), and when I say "results" I don't mean a collection of links to other sites.  I mean concrete statements such as:

In order for a wish to come true, it may not suffice to simply make the wish at 11:11.  The chances of a wish coming true increase by between 800% and 1200% if the wish is said out loud 11 times during the minute when the clock shows 11:11.

Which would explain why I haven't been having much success, because my wishes are mostly six sentences long and in a foreign language  :(

Which, however, does not mean that I'm downgrading to shorter wishes now.  I'll keep making the same wishes, I'll just try to speak faster.

It's 10:11 PM now, so in an hour ...  Wish me luck!

Monday, October 29, 2012

Anticlimatic

No, that isn't a typo in the title, I'm just making up that word.  Because that's how I'm feeling today.

I don't normally complain about stuff like weather or traffic, but ...  It's like this:  I have never in my life complained about bubonic plague either, but if I ever get ill with that disease myself, I probably will complain about it.  And what this climate did to me today didn't hurt me any less than bubonic plague could.

My photography class meets again on Saturday, and I have prints due in class that day, and I woke up extra early this morning, hoping to shoot the last bracket of frames before my usual Monday (and this semester my usual Monday starts really early---my first class is at 9:25 AM already).

And the sun decided to not rise this morning.

And this is about the climate in general, and not just about today's weather:  I have set an alarm on every one of my off days for the last three weeks, and I have seen the sun on exactly two of those days (which were the days when I shot the first few frames).  I still need at least one more sunny day, which is why I finally broke down and decided to try it today---a working day---even though it's generally a bad idea to handle fragile equipment (such as a camera) just before doing Math.

And here's what makes it even worse:  I'm still pretty slow in the darkroom, so I can't exactly afford to wait patiently all week, so if I don't get good negatives by Wednesday afternoon, then I'll have to go ahead and print from bad negatives already  :(

So that's how my day was:  I made up a new word today:  "Anticlimatic".

Friday, October 26, 2012

Lullabies

The one of Yeats, and the other of Auden.  Have a great weekend!
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Lullaby

By W.B.Yeats

Beloved, may your sleep be sound
That have found it where you fed.
What were all the world's alarms
To mighty Paris when he found
Sleep upon a golden bed
That first dawn in Helen's arms?

Sleep, beloved, such a sleep
As did that wild Tristram know
When, the potion's work being done,
Roe could run or doe could leap
Under oak and beechen bough,
Roe could leap or doe could run;

Such a sleep and sound as fell
Upon Eurotas' grassy bank
When the holy bird, that there
Accomplished his predestined will,
From the limbs of Leda sank
But not from her protecting care.
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Lullaby

By W.H. Auden

Lay your sleeping head, my love,
Human on my faithless arm;
Time and fevers burn away
Individual beauty from
Thoughtful children, and the grave
Proves the child ephemeral:
But in my arms till break of day
Let the living creature lie,
Mortal, guilty, but to me
The entirely beautiful.

Soul and body have no bounds:
To lovers as they lie upon
Her tolerant enchanted slope
In their ordinary swoon,
Grave the vision Venus sends
Of supernatural sympathy,
Universal love and hope;
While an abstract insight wakes
Among the glaciers and the rocks
The hermit's carnal ecstasy.

Certainty, fidelity
On the stroke of midnight pass
Like vibrations of a bell,
And fashionable madmen raise
Their pedantic boring cry:
Every farthing of the cost,
All the dreaded cards foretell,
Shall be paid, but from this night
Not a whisper, not a thought,
Not a kiss nor look be lost.

Beauty, midnight, vision dies:
Let the winds of dawn that blow
Softly round your dreaming head
Such a day of welcome show
Eye and knocking heart may bless,
Find the mortal world enough;
Noons of dryness find you fed
By the involuntary powers,
Nights of insult let you pass
Watched by every human love.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

10 :)

Today's original piece has just 10 words.  New personal record  :)
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Middle Field

After noon, by Douglas St., under&among the wet, black leaves.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

1919

Starting next week, I might, for a time, in order to save time, only keep a how-my-day-was blog.  But today, a longer poem from Yeats:
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NINETEEN HUNDRED AND NINETEEN

By W.B. Yeats

I.
Many ingenious lovely things are gone
That seemed sheer miracle to the multitude,
protected from the circle of the moon
That pitches common things about.  There stood
Amid the ornamental bronze and stone
An ancient image made of olive wood --
And gone are Phidias' famous ivories
And all the golden grasshoppers and bees.

We too had many pretty toys when young:
A law indifferent to blame or praise,
To bribe or threat; habits that made old wrong
Melt down, as it were wax in the sun's rays;
Public opinion ripening for so long
We thought it would outlive all future days.
O what fine thought we had because we thought
That the worst rogues and rascals had died out.

All teeth were drawn, all ancient tricks unlearned,
And a great army but a showy thing;
What matter that no cannon had been turned
Into a ploughshare? Parliament and king
Thought that unless a little powder burned
The trumpeters might burst with trumpeting
And yet it lack all glory; and perchance
The guardsmen's drowsy chargers would not prance.

Now days are dragon-ridden, the nightmare
Rides upon sleep:  a drunken soldiery
Can leave the mother, murdered at her door,
To crawl in her own blood, and go scot-free;
The night can sweat with terror as before
We pieced our thoughts into philosophy,
And planned to bring the world under a rule,
Who are but weasels fighting in a hole.

He who can read the signs nor sink unmanned
Into the half-deceit of some intoxicant
From shallow wits; who knows no work can stand,
Whether health, wealth or peace of mind were spent
On master-work of intellect or hand,
No honour leave its mighty monument,
Has but one comfort left:  all triumph would
But break upon his ghostly solitude.

But is there any comfort to be found?
Man is in love and loves what vanishes,
What more is there to say? That country round
None dared admit, if Such a thought were his,
Incendiary or bigot could be found
To burn that stump on the Acropolis,
Or break in bits the famous ivories
Or traffic in the grasshoppers or bees.

II.
When Loie Fuller's Chinese dancers enwound
A shining web, a floating ribbon of cloth,
It seemed that a dragon of air
Had fallen among dancers, had whirled them round
Or hurried them off on its own furious path;
So the platonic Year
Whirls out new right and wrong,
Whirls in the old instead;
All men are dancers and their tread
Goes to the barbarous clangour of a gong.

III
Some moralist or mythological poet
Compares the solitary soul to a swan;
I am satisfied with that,
Satisfied if a troubled mirror show it,
Before that brief gleam of its life be gone,
An image of its state;
The wings half spread for flight,
The breast thrust out in pride
Whether to play, or to ride
Those winds that clamour of approaching night.

A man in his own secret meditation
Is lost amid the labyrinth that he has made
In art or politics;
Some Platonist affirms that in the station
Where we should cast off body and trade
The ancient habit sticks,
And that if our works could
But vanish with our breath
That were a lucky death,
For triumph can but mar our solitude.

The swan has leaped into the desolate heaven:
That image can bring wildness, bring a rage
To end all things, to end
What my laborious life imagined, even
The half-imagined, the half-written page;
O but we dreamed to mend
Whatever mischief seemed
To afflict mankind, but now
That winds of winter blow
Learn that we were crack-pated when we dreamed.

IV.
We, who seven years ago
Talked of honour and of truth,
Shriek with pleasure if we show
The weasel's twist, the weasel's tooth.

V.
Come let us mock at the great
That had such burdens on the mind
And toiled so hard and late
To leave some monument behind,
Nor thought of the levelling wind.

Come let us mock at the wise;
With all those calendars whereon
They fixed old aching eyes,
They never saw how seasons run,
And now but gape at the sun.

Come let us mock at the good
That fancied goodness might be gay,
And sick of solitude
Might proclaim a holiday:
Wind shrieked -- and where are they?

Mock mockers after that
That would not lift a hand maybe
To help good, wise or great
To bar that foul storm out, for we
Traffic in mockery.

VI.
Violence upon the roads:  violence of horses;
Some few have handsome riders, are garlanded
On delicate sensitive ear or tossing mane,
But wearied running round and round in their courses
All break and vanish, and evil gathers head:
Herodias' daughters have returned again,
A sudden blast of dusty wind and after
Thunder of feet, tumult of images,
Their purpose in the labyrinth of the wind;
And should some crazy hand dare touch a daughter
All turn with amorous cries, or angry cries,
According to the wind, for all are blind.
But now wind drops, dust settles; thereupon
There lurches past, his great eyes without thought
Under the shadow of stupid straw-pale locks,
That insolent fiend Robert Artisson
To whom the love-lorn Lady Kyteler brought
Bronzed peacock feathers, red combs of her cocks.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Experimental piece

But the experiment didn't work out as well as I'd have liked.

On the plus side, today's original piece is true, it's personal, and it qualifies as a genuine "found piece" as well  :)

On the minus side, it's not a story, and it took 328 words  :(
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I Will Not Meet You Halfway

There are times when I let other people take responsibility for solving the problem I attempt to deal with all of his/her and my concerns I am usually firm in pursuing my goals I sometimes sacrifice my own wishes for the wishes of the other person I consistently seek the other person’s help in working out a solution I try to win my position I try to postpone the issue until I have had some time to think it over I attempt to get all concerns and issues immediately out in the open I make some effort to get my way I am firm in pursuing my goals I attempt to get all concerns and issues immediately out in the open I sometimes avoid taking positions that would create controversy I press to get my points made I tell him/her my ideas and ask him/her for his/hers I might try to soothe the other person’s feelings and preserve our friendship I try to convince the other person of the merits of my position I am usually firm in pursuing my goals

If it makes the other person happy, I might let him/her maintain his/her views I try to postpone the issue until I have had some time to think it over I attempt to immediately work through our differences I always lean toward a direct discussion of the problem I assert my wishes I am very often concerned with satisfying all our wishes

If his/her position seems very important to him/her, I would try to meet his/her wishes I try to show him/her the logic and benefits of my position I am nearly always concerned with satisfying all our wishes

If it makes the other person happy, I might let him/her maintain his/her views I am usually firm in pursuing my goals I feel that differences are not always worth worrying about I always share the problem with the other person so that we can work it out