Color Record No. 48, Side B:
Thursday, July 31, 2014
Wednesday, July 30, 2014
Another Miir Ghazal :)
Color
Record No. 48, Side A:
Here’s a
very famous Ghazal J
raah-e
duur-e ‘ishq meN rotaa hai kyaa
aage aage
dekhiye hotaa hai kyaa
qaafile
meN subH ke ik shor hai
ya’ani
Ghaafil ham chale sotaa hai kyaa
sabz
hotii hii nahiiN yih sar zamiiN
tuKhm-e
Khvaahish dil meN tuu botaa hai kyaa
yih
nishaan-e ‘ishq haiN jaate nahiiN
daaGh
chhaatii ke ‘abas dhotaa hai kyaa
Ghairat-e
yusuf hai yih vaqt-e ‘aziiz
:Miir: is
ko raa’igaaN khotaa hai kyaa
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
Monday, July 28, 2014
Sunday, July 27, 2014
Prose poem
The B-side of No. 46:
and this :)
Denied Areas
By James Tate
Some zones you have to walk around. We have no idea what goes on inside them, we just give them a wide berth and look around for the friendlier zones. Sometimes you have to take running leaps to get to them. We keep moving, not always in straight lines, but we keep moving. And we can chat, "How's the weather?" "I don't know." "How's your mother?" "I don't have a mother." It can be stressful, though sometimes we break into song without warning, and then someone always starts to remember another life, and then one by one we all begin to weep and anything seems possible, like a glistening rainy pavement, or a lodging house, a toothpick.
Saturday, July 26, 2014
Friday, July 25, 2014
A slightly longer Ghazal
The
B-side of No. 45:
and a masterpiece
from Miir J
samjhe
the :Miir: ham kih yih naasuur kam huvaa
phir un
dinoN meN diidah-e KhuuN-baar nam huvaa
aa’e ba-raNg-e
abr-e ‘araq naak tum idhar
Hairaan
huuN kih aaj kidhar ko karam huvaa
tujh bin
sharaab pii ke mu’e sab tire Kharaab
saaqii ba-Ghair
tere unheN jam sam huvaa
kaafir
hamaare dil ki nah puuchh apne ‘ishq meN
bait a’l Haraam
thaa so vuh bait a’l sanam huvaa
*
Khaanah
Kharaab kis ka kiyaa teri chashm ne
thaa kaun
yuuN jise tu nasiib aik dam huvaa
talvaar
kis ke Khuun meN sar Duub hai tirii
yih kis
ajal rasiida ke ghar par sitam huvaa
*
aa’ii
nazar jo gor sulemaaN ki aik roz
kuuche
par us mazaar ke thaa yih raqam huvaa
k-ai sar kashaaN
jahaan meN kheNchaa tha maiN bhi sar
paayaan-e
kaar mor ki Khaak-e qadam huvaa
*
afsos kii
bhi chashm thi un se Khilaaf-e ‘aql
baar-e ‘ilaaqa
se tu ‘abas pusht Kham huvaa
ahl-e
jahaaN haiN saare tire jiite jii talak
puuchheN
ge bhii nah baat jahaaN tuu ‘adam huvaa
kyaa kyaa
‘aziiz dost mile :Miir: Khaak meN
naadaan yaaN
kasuu ka kasuu ko bhi Gham huvaa
Thursday, July 24, 2014
More from Miir :)
Color
Record No. 45, Side A:
and an
Urdu Ghazal again J
Khvaah
mujh se laR gayaa ab Khvaah mujh se mil gayaa
kyaa kahuuN
ai ham nishiiN maiN tujh se Haasil dil gayaa
apne hii
dil ko nah ho vaashud to kyaa Haasil nasiim
go chaman
meN Ghunchah-e pazhmurda tujh se khil gayaa
dil se
aaNkhoN meN lahuu aataa hai shaayad raat ko
kash ma
kash meN be qaraarii kii yih phoRaa chhil gayaa
qais kaa
kyaa kyaa gayaa uudhar dil o diiN hosh o sabr
jis taraf
saHraa se lailaa kaa chalaa maHmil gayaa
rashk kii
jaagah hai marg us kushtah-e Hasrat ki :Miir:
na’ash ke
hamraah jis kii gor tak qaatil gayaa
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
The Open Boat, concluded
The
B-side of No. 44:
and the
ending of The Open Boat J
The Open
Boat
By
Stephen Crane
VII
When the
correspondent again opened his eyes, the sea and the sky were each of the gray
hue of the dawning. Later, carmine and gold was painted upon the waters. The
morning appeared finally, in its splendor with a sky of pure blue, and the
sunlight flamed on the tips of the waves.
On the
distant dunes were set many little black cottages, and a tall white wind-mill
reared above them. No man, nor dog, nor bicycle appeared on the beach. The
cottages might have formed a deserted village.
The
voyagers scanned the shore. A conference was held in the boat.
"Well," said the captain, "if no help is coming, we might better
try a run through the surf right away. If we stay out here much longer we will
be too weak to do anything for ourselves at all." The others silently
acquiesced in this reasoning. The boat was headed for the beach. The
correspondent wondered if none ever ascended the tall wind-tower, and if then
they never looked seaward. This tower was a giant, standing with its back to the
plight of the ants. It represented in a degree, to the correspondent, the
serenity of nature amid the struggles of the individual -- nature in the wind,
and nature in the vision of men. She did not seem cruel to him, nor beneficent,
nor treacherous, nor wise. But she was indifferent, flatly indifferent. It is,
perhaps, plausible that a man in this situation, impressed with the unconcern
of the universe, should see the innumerable flaws of his life and have them
taste wickedly in his mind and wish for another chance. A distinction between
right and wrong seems absurdly clear to him, then, in this new ignorance of the
grave-edge, and he understands that if he were given another opportunity he
would mend his conduct and his words, and be better and brighter during an
introduction, or at a tea.
"Now,
boys," said the captain, "she is going to swamp sure. All we can do
is to work her in as far as possible, and then when she swamps, pile out and
scramble for the beach. Keep cool now and don't jump until she swamps sure."
The oiler
took the oars. Over his shoulders he scanned the surf. "Captain," he
said, "I think I'd better bring her about, and keep her head-on to the
seas and back her in."
"All
right, Billie," said the captain. "Back her in." The oiler swung
the boat then and, seated in the stern, the cook and the correspondent were
obliged to look over their shoulders to contemplate the lonely and indifferent
shore.
The
monstrous inshore rollers heaved the boat high until the men were again enabled
to see the white sheets of water scudding up the slanted beach. "We won't
get in very close," said the captain. Each time a man could wrest his
attention from the rollers, he turned his glance toward the shore, and in the
expression of the eyes during this contemplation there was a singular quality.
The correspondent, observing the others, knew that they were not afraid, but
the full meaning of their glances was shrouded.
As for
himself, he was too tired to grapple fundamentally with the fact. He tried to
coerce his mind into thinking of it, but the mind was dominated at this time by
the muscles, and the muscles said they did not care. It merely occurred to him
that if he should drown it would be a shame.
There
were no hurried words, no pallor, no plain agitation. The men simply looked at
the shore. "Now, remember to get well clear of the boat when you
jump," said the captain.
Seaward
the crest of a roller suddenly fell with a thunderous crash, and the long white
comber came roaring down upon the boat.
"Steady
now," said the captain. The men were silent. They turned their eyes from
the shore to the comber and waited. The boat slid up the incline, leaped at the
furious top, bounced over it, and swung down the long back of the waves. Some
water had been shipped and the cook bailed it out.
But the
next crest crashed also. The tumbling boiling flood of white water caught the
boat and whirled it almost perpendicular. Water swarmed in from all sides. The
correspondent had his hands on the gunwale at this time, and when the water
entered at that place he swiftly withdrew his fingers, as if he objected to
wetting them.
The
little boat, drunken with this weight of water, reeled and snuggled deeper into
the sea.
"Bail
her out, cook! Bail her out," said the captain.
"All
right, captain," said the cook.
"Now,
boys, the next one will do for us, sure," said the oiler. "Mind to
jump clear of the boat."
The third
wave moved forward, huge, furious, implacable. It fairly swallowed the dingey,
and almost simultaneously the men tumbled into the sea. A piece of life-belt
had lain in the bottom of the boat, and as the correspondent went overboard he
held this to his chest with his left hand.
The
January water was icy, and he reflected immediately that it was colder than he
had expected to find it off the coast of Florida. This appeared to his dazed
mind as a fact important enough to be noted at the time. The coldness of the
water was sad; it was tragic. This fact was somehow mixed and confused with his
opinion of his own situation that it seemed almost a proper reason for tears.
The water was cold.
When he
came to the surface he was conscious of little but the noisy water. Afterward
he saw his companions in the sea. The oiler was ahead in the race. He was
swimming strongly and rapidly. Off to the correspondent's left, the cook's
great white and corked back bulged out of the water, and in the rear the
captain was hanging with his one good hand to the keel of the overturned
dingey.
There is
a certain immovable quality to a shore, and the correspondent wondered at it
amid the confusion of the sea.
It seemed
also very attractive, but the correspondent knew that it was a long journey,
and he paddled leisurely. The piece of life-preserver lay under him, and
sometimes he whirled down the incline of a wave as if he were on a hand-sled.
But
finally he arrived at a place in the sea where travel was beset with
difficulty. He did not pause swimming to inquire what manner of current had
caught him, but there his progress ceased. The shore was set before him like a
bit of scenery on a stage, and he looked at it and understood with his eyes
each detail of it.
As the
cook passed, much farther to the left, the captain was calling to him,
"Turn over on your back, cook! Turn over on your back and use the
oar."
"All
right, sir!" The cook turned on his back, and, paddling with an oar, went
ahead as if he were a canoe.
Presently
the boat also passed to the left of the correspondent with the captain clinging
with one hand to the keel. He would have appeared like a man raising himself to
look over a board fence, if it were not for the extraordinary gymnastics of the
boat. The correspondent marvelled that the captain could still hold to it.
They
passed on, nearer to shore -- the oiler, the cook, the captain -- and following
them went the water-jar, bouncing gayly over the seas.
The
correspondent remained in the grip of this strange new enemy -- a current. The
shore, with its white slope of sand and its green bluff, topped with little
silent cottages, was spread like a picture before him. It was very near to him
then, but he was impressed as one who in a gallery looks at a scene from Brittany
or Algiers.
He
thought: "I am going to drown? Can it be possible? Can it be possible? Can
it be possible?" Perhaps an individual must consider his own death to be
the final phenomenon of nature.
But later
a wave perhaps whirled him out of this small deadly current, for he found
suddenly that he could again make progress toward the shore. Later still, he
was aware that the captain, clinging with one hand to the keel of the dingey,
had his face turned away from the shore and toward him, and was calling his
name. "Come to the boat! Come to the boat!"
In his
struggle to reach the captain and the boat, he reflected that when one gets
properly wearied, drowning must really be a comfortable arrangement, a
cessation of hostilities accompanied by a large degree of relief, and he was
glad of it, for the main thing in his mind for some moments had been horror of
the temporary agony. He did not wish to be hurt.
Presently
he saw a man running along the shore. He was undressing with most remarkable
speed. Coat, trousers, shirt, everything flew magically off him.
"Come
to the boat," called the captain.
"All
right, captain." As the correspondent paddled, he saw the captain let
himself down to bottom and leave the boat. Then the correspondent performed his
one little marvel of the voyage. A large wave caught him and flung him with
ease and supreme speed completely over the boat and far beyond it. It struck
him even then as an event in gymnastics, and a true miracle of the sea. An
overturned boat in the surf is not a plaything to a swimming man.
The
correspondent arrived in water that reached only to his waist, but his
condition did not enable him to stand for more than a moment. Each wave knocked
him into a heap, and the under-tow pulled at him.
Then he
saw the man who had been running and undressing, and undressing and running,
come bounding into the water. He dragged ashore the cook, and then waded toward
the captain, but the captain waved him away, and sent him to the correspondent.
He was naked, naked as a tree in winter, but a halo was about his head, and he
shone like a saint. He gave a strong pull, and a long drag, and a bully heave
at the correspondent's hand. The correspondent, schooled in the minor formulae,
said: "Thanks, old man." But suddenly the man cried: "What's
that?" He pointed a swift finger. The correspondent said: "Go."
In the
shallows, face downward, lay the oiler. His forehead touched sand that was
periodically, between each wave, clear of the sea.
The
correspondent did not know all that transpired afterward. When he achieved safe
ground he fell, striking the sand with each particular part of his body. It was
as if he had dropped from a roof, but the thud was grateful to him.
It seems
that instantly the beach was populated with men with blankets, clothes, and
flasks, and women with coffee-pots and all the remedies sacred to their minds.
The welcome of the land to the men from the sea was warm and generous, but a
still and dripping shape was carried slowly up the beach, and the land's
welcome for it could only be the different and sinister hospitality of the
grave.
When it
came night, the white waves paced to and fro in the moonlight, and the wind
brought the sound of the great sea's voice to the men on shore, and they felt
that they could then be interpreters.
Tuesday, July 22, 2014
The Open Boat: Almost there :)
Color
Record No. 44, Side A:
and the
penultimate part of The Open Boat:
The Open
Boat (contd.)
By
Stephen Crane
VI
"If
I am going to be drowned -- if I am going to be drowned -- if I am going to be
drowned, why, in the name of the seven mad gods, who rule the sea, was I
allowed to come thus far and contemplate sand and trees?"
During
this dismal night, it may be remarked that a man would conclude that it was
really the intention of the seven mad gods to drown him, despite the abominable
injustice of it. For it was certainly an abominable injustice to drown a man
who had worked so hard, so hard. The man felt it would be a crime most
unnatural. Other people had drowned at sea since galleys swarmed with painted
sails, but still --
When it
occurs to a man that nature does not regard him as important, and that she
feels she would not maim the universe by disposing of him, he at first wishes
to throw bricks at the temple, and he hates deeply the fact that there are no
bricks and no temples. Any visible expression of nature would surely be
pelleted with his jeers.
Then, if
there be no tangible thing to hoot he feels, perhaps, the desire to confront a
personification and indulge in pleas, bowed to one knee, and with hands
supplicant, saying: "Yes, but I love myself."
A high
cold star on a winter's night is the word he feels that she says to him.
Thereafter he knows the pathos of his situation.
The men
in the dingey had not discussed these matters, but each had, no doubt,
reflected upon them in silence and according to his mind. There was seldom any
expression upon their faces save the general one of complete weariness. Speech
was devoted to the business of the boat.
To chime
the notes of his emotion, a verse mysteriously entered the correspondent's
head. He had even forgotten that he had forgotten this verse, but it suddenly
was in his mind.
A soldier
of the Legion lay dying in Algiers,
There was
lack of woman's nursing, there was dearth of woman's tears;
But a
comrade stood beside him, and he took that comrade's hand
And he
said: "I shall never see my own, my native land."
In his
childhood, the correspondent had been made acquainted with the fact that a
soldier of the Legion lay dying in Algiers, but he had never regarded the fact
as important. Myriads of his school-fellows had informed him of the soldier's
plight, but the dinning had naturally ended by making him perfectly
indifferent. He had never considered it his affair that a soldier of the Legion
lay dying in Algiers, nor had it appeared to him as a matter for sorrow. It was
less to him than breaking of a pencil's point.
Now, however,
it quaintly came to him as a human, living thing. It was no longer merely a
picture of a few throes in the breast of a poet, meanwhile drinking tea and
warming his feet at the grate; it was an actuality -- stern, mournful, and
fine.
The
correspondent plainly saw the soldier. He lay on the sand with his feet out
straight and still. While his pale left hand was upon his chest in an attempt
to thwart the going of his life, the blood came between his fingers. In the far
Algerian distance, a city of low square forms was set against a sky that was
faint with the last sunset hues. The correspondent, plying the oars and
dreaming of the slow and slower movements of the lips of the soldier, was moved
by a profound and perfectly impersonal comprehension. He was sorry for the
soldier of the Legion who lay dying in Algiers.
The thing
which had followed the boat and waited had evidently grown bored at the delay.
There was no longer to be heard the slash of the cut-water, and there was no
longer the flame of the long trail. The light in the north still glimmered, but
it was apparently no nearer to the boat. Sometimes the boom of the surf rang in
the correspondent's ears, and he turned the craft seaward then and rowed
harder. Southward, someone had evidently built a watch-fire on the beach. It
was too low and too far to be seen, but it made a shimmering, roseate
reflection upon the bluff back of it, and this could be discerned from the
boat. The wind came stronger, and sometimes a wave suddenly raged out like a
mountain-cat and there was to be seen the sheen and sparkle of a broken crest.
The
captain, in the bow, moved on his water-jar and sat erect. "Pretty long
night," he observed to the correspondent. He looked at the shore.
"Those life-saving people take their time."
"Did
you see that shark playing around?"
"Yes,
I saw him. He was a big fellow, all right."
"Wish
I had known you were awake."
Later the
correspondent spoke into the bottom of the boat.
"Billie!"
There was a slow and gradual disentanglement. "Billie, will you spell
me?"
"Sure,"
said the oiler.
As soon
as the correspondent touched the cold comfortable sea-water in the bottom of
the boat, and had huddled close to the cook's life-belt he was deep in sleep,
despite the fact that his teeth played all the popular airs. This sleep was so
good to him that it was but a moment before he heard a voice call his name in a
tone that demonstrated the last stages of exhaustion. "Will you spell me?"
"Sure,
Billie."
The light
in the north had mysteriously vanished, but the correspondent took his course
from the wide-awake captain.
Later in
the night they took the boat farther out to sea, and the captain directed the
cook to take one oar at the stern and keep the boat facing the seas. He was to
call out if he should hear the thunder of the surf. This plan enabled the oiler
and the correspondent to get respite together. "We'll give those boys a
chance to get into shape again," said the captain. They curled down and,
after a few preliminary chatterings and trembles, slept once more the dead
sleep. Neither knew they had bequeathed to the cook the company of another
shark, or perhaps the same shark.
As the
boat caroused on the waves, spray occasionally bumped over the side and gave
them a fresh soaking, but this had no power to break their repose. The ominous
slash of the wind and the water affected them as it would have affected
mummies.
"Boys,"
said the cook, with the notes of every reluctance in his voice, "she's
drifted in pretty close. I guess one of you had better take her to sea
again." The correspondent, aroused, heard the crash of the toppled crests.
As he was
rowing, the captain gave him some whiskey and water, and this steadied the
chills out of him. "If I ever get ashore and anybody shows me even a
photograph of an oar -- "
At last
there was a short conversation.
"Billie.
. . . Billie, will you spell me?"
"Sure,"
said the oiler.
Monday, July 21, 2014
The Open Boat, part V of VII
Color
Record No. 43, Side B:
And here’s
the next part of The Open Boat:
The Open
Boat (contd.)
By
Stephen Crane
V
"Pie,"
said the oiler and the correspondent, agitatedly. "Don't talk about those
things, blast you!"
"Well,"
said the cook, "I was just thinking about ham sandwiches, and -- "
A night
on the sea in an open boat is a long night. As darkness settled finally, the
shine of the light, lifting from the sea in the south, changed to full gold. On
the northern horizon a new light appeared, a small bluish gleam on the edge of
the waters. These two lights were the furniture of the world. Otherwise there
was nothing but waves.
Two men
huddled in the stern, and distances were so magnificent in the dingey that the
rower was enabled to keep his feet partly warmed by thrusting them under his companions.
Their legs indeed extended far under the rowing-seat until they touched the
feet of the captain forward. Sometimes, despite the efforts of the tired
oarsman, a wave came piling into the boat, an icy wave of the night, and the
chilling water soaked them anew. They would twist their bodies for a moment and
groan, and sleep the dead sleep once more, while the water in the boat gurgled
about them as the craft rocked.
The plan
of the oiler and the correspondent was for one to row until he lost the ability,
and then arouse the other from his sea-water couch in the bottom of the boat.
The oiler
plied the oars until his head drooped forward, and the overpowering sleep
blinded him. And he rowed yet afterward. Then he touched a man in the bottom of
the boat, and called his name. "Will you spell me for a little
while?" he said, meekly.
"Sure,
Billie," said the correspondent, awakening and dragging himself to a
sitting position. They exchanged places carefully, and the oiler, cuddling down
to the sea-water at the cook's side, seemed to go to sleep instantly.
The
particular violence of the sea had ceased. The waves came without snarling. The
obligation of the man at the oars was to keep the boat headed so that the tilt
of the rollers would not capsize her, and to preserve her from filling when the
crests rushed past. The black waves were silent and hard to be seen in the
darkness. Often one was almost upon the boat before the oarsman was aware.
In a low
voice the correspondent addressed the captain. He was not sure that the captain
was awake, although this iron man seemed to be always awake. "Captain,
shall I keep her making for that light north, sir?"
The same
steady voice answered him. "Yes. Keep it about two points off the port
bow."
The cook
had tied a life-belt around himself in order to get even the warmth which this
clumsy cork contrivance could donate, and he seemed almost stove-like when a
rower, whose teeth invariably chattered wildly as soon as he ceased his labor,
dropped down to sleep.
The correspondent,
as he rowed, looked down at the two men sleeping under foot. The cook's arm was
around the oiler's shoulders, and, with their fragmentary clothing and haggard
faces, they were the babes of the sea, a grotesque rendering of the old babes
in the wood.
Later he
must have grown stupid at his work, for suddenly there was a growling of water,
and a crest came with a roar and a swash into the boat, and it was a wonder
that it did not set the cook afloat in his life-belt. The cook continued to
sleep, but the oiler sat up, blinking his eyes and shaking with the new cold.
"Oh,
I'm awful sorry, Billie," said the correspondent, contritely.
"That's
all right, old boy," said the oiler, and lay down again and was asleep.
Presently
it seemed that even the captain dozed, and the correspondent thought that he
was the one man afloat on all the oceans. The wind had a voice as it came over
the waves, and it was sadder than the end.
There was
a long, loud swishing astern of the boat, and a gleaming trail of
phosphorescence, like blue flame, was furrowed on the black waters. It might
have been made by a monstrous knife.
Then
there came a stillness, while the correspondent breathed with the open mouth
and looked at the sea.
Suddenly
there was another swish and another long flash of bluish light, and this time
it was alongside the boat, and might almost have been reached with an oar. The
correspondent saw an enormous fin speed like a shadow through the water,
hurling the crystalline spray and leaving the long glowing trail.
The
correspondent looked over his shoulder at the captain. His face was hidden, and
he seemed to be asleep. He looked at the babes of the sea. They certainly were
asleep. So, being bereft of sympathy, he leaned a little way to one side and
swore softly into the sea.
But the
thing did not then leave the vicinity of the boat. Ahead or astern, on one side
or the other, at intervals long or short, fled the long sparkling streak, and
there was to be heard the whiroo of the dark fin. The speed and power of the
thing was greatly to be admired. It cut the water like a gigantic and keen
projectile.
The
presence of this biding thing did not affect the man with the same horror that
it would if he had been a picnicker. He simply looked at the sea dully and
swore in an undertone.
Nevertheless,
it is true that he did not wish to be alone with the thing. He wished one of
his companions to awaken by chance and keep him company with it. But the
captain hung motionless over the water-jar and the oiler and the cook in the
bottom of the boat were plunged in slumber.
Sunday, July 20, 2014
The Open Boat, contd.
Color
Record No. 43, Side A:
and the
next part of The Open Boat:
The Open
Boat (contd.)
By Stephen Crane
By Stephen Crane
IV
"Cook,"
remarked the captain, "there don't seem to be any signs of life about your
house of refuge."
"No,"
replied the cook. "Funny they don't see us!"
A broad
stretch of lowly coast lay before the eyes of the men. It was of low dunes
topped with dark vegetation. The roar of the surf was plain, and sometimes they
could see the white lip of a wave as it spun up the beach. A tiny house was
blocked out black upon the sky. Southward, the slim light-house lifted its
little gray length.
Tide,
wind, and waves were swinging the dingey northward. "Funny they don't see
us," said the men.
The
surf's roar was here dulled, but its tone was, nevertheless, thunderous and
mighty. As the boat swam over the great rollers, the men sat listening to this
roar. "We'll swamp sure," said everybody.
It is
fair to say here that there was not a life-saving station within twenty miles
in either direction, but the men did not know this fact and in consequence they
made dark and opprobrious remarks concerning the eyesight of the nation's
life-savers. Four scowling men sat in the dingey and surpassed records in the
invention of epithets.
"Funny
they don't see us."
The
light-heartedness of a former time had completely faded. To their sharpened
minds it was easy to conjure pictures of all kinds of incompetency and
blindness and indeed, cowardice. There was the shore of the populous land, and
it was bitter and bitter to them that from it came no sign.
"Well,"
said the captain, ultimately, "I suppose we'll have to make a try for
ourselves. If we stay out here too long, we'll none of us have strength left to
swim after the boat swamps."
And so
the oiler, who was at the oars, turned the boat straight for the shore. There
was a sudden tightening of muscles. There was some thinking.
"If
we don't all get ashore -- " said the captain. "If we don't all get
ashore, I suppose you fellows know where to send news of my finish?"
They then
briefly exchanged some addresses and admonitions. As for the reflections of the
men, there was a great deal of rage in them. Perchance they might be formulated
thus: "If I am going to be drowned -- if I am going to be drowned -- if I
am going to be drowned, why, in the name of the seven mad gods who rule the
sea, was I allowed to come thus far and contemplate sand and trees? Was I
brought here merely to have my nose dragged away as I was about to nibble the
sacred cheese of life? It is preposterous. If this old ninny-woman, Fate,
cannot do better than this, she should be deprived of the management of men's
fortunes. She is an old hen who knows not her intention. If she has decided to
drown me, why did she not do it in the beginning and save me all this trouble.
The whole affair is absurd. . . . But, no, she cannot mean to drown me. She
dare not drown me. She cannot drown me. Not after all this work."
Afterward the man might have had an impulse to shake his fist at the clouds:
"Just you drown me, now, and then hear what I call you!"
The
billows that came at this time were more formidable. They seemed always just
about to break and roll over the little boat in a turmoil of foam. There was a
preparatory and long growl in the speech of them. No mind unused to the sea
would have concluded that the dingey could ascend these sheer heights in time.
The shore was still afar. The oiler was a wily surfman. "Boys," he
said, swiftly, "she won't live three minutes more and we're too far out to
swim. Shall I take her to sea again, captain?"
"Yes!
Go ahead!" said the captain.
This
oiler, by a series of quick miracles, and fast and steady oarsmanship, turned
the boat in the middle of the surf and took her safely to sea again.
There was
a considerable silence as the boat bumped over the furrowed sea to deeper
water. Then somebody in gloom spoke. "Well, anyhow, they must have seen us
from the shore by now."
The gulls
went in slanting flight up the wind toward the gray desolate east. A squall,
marked by dingy clouds, and clouds brick-red, like smoke from a burning
building, appeared from the southeast.
"What
do you think of those life-saving people? Ain't they peaches?"
"Funny
they haven't seen us."
"Maybe
they think we're out here for sport! Maybe they think we're fishin'. Maybe they
think we're damned fools."
It was a
long afternoon. A changed tide tried to force them southward, but wind and wave
said northward. Far ahead, where coast-line, sea, and sky formed their mighty
angle, there were little dots which seemed to indicate a city on the shore.
"St.
Augustine?"
The
captain shook his head. "Too near Mosquito Inlet."
And the
oiler rowed, and then the correspondent rowed. Then the oiler rowed. It was a
weary business. The human back can become the seat of more aches and pains than
are registered in books for the composite anatomy of a regiment. It is a
limited area, but it can become the theatre of innumerable muscular conflicts,
tangles, wrenches, knots, and other comforts.
"Did
you ever like to row, Billie?" asked the correspondent.
"No,"
said the oiler. "Hang it."
When one
exchanged the rowing-seat for a place in the bottom of the boat, he suffered a
bodily depression that caused him to be careless of everything save an
obligation to wiggle one finger. There was cold sea-water swashing to and fro
in the boat, and he lay in it. His head, pillowed on a thwart, was within an
inch of the swirl of a wave crest, and sometimes a particularly obstreperous
sea came in-board and drenched him once more. But these matters did not annoy
him. It is almost certain that if the boat had capsized he would have tumbled
comfortably out upon the ocean as if he felt sure it was a great soft mattress.
"Look!
There's a man on the shore!"
"Where?"
"There!
See 'im? See 'im?"
"Yes,
sure! He's walking along."
"Now
he's stopped. Look! He's facing us!"
"He's
waving at us!"
"So
he is! By thunder!"
"Ah,
now, we're all right! Now we're all right! There'll be a boat out here for us
in half an hour."
"He's
going on. He's running. He's going up to that house there."
The
remote beach seemed lower than the sea, and it required a searching glance to
discern the little black figure. The captain saw a floating stick and they
rowed to it. A bath-towel was by some weird chance in the boat, and, tying this
on the stick, the captain waved it. The oarsman did not dare turn his head, so
he was obliged to ask questions.
"What's
he doing now?"
"He's
standing still again. He's looking, I think. . . . There he goes again. Toward
the house. . . . Now he's stopped again."
"Is
he waving at us?"
"No,
not now! he was, though."
"Look!
There comes another man!"
"He's
running."
"Look
at him go, would you."
"Why,
he's on a bicycle. Now he's met the other man. They're both waving at us.
Look!"
"There
comes something up the beach."
"What
the devil is that thing?"
"Why,
it looks like a boat."
"Why,
certainly it's a boat."
"No,
it's on wheels."
"Yes,
so it is. Well, that must be the life-boat. They drag them along shore on a
wagon."
"That's
the life-boat, sure."
"No,
by -- -- , it's -- it's an omnibus."
"I
tell you it's a life-boat."
"It
is not! It's an omnibus. I can see it plain. See? One of these big hotel
omnibuses."
"By
thunder, you're right. It's an omnibus, sure as fate. What do you suppose they
are doing with an omnibus? Maybe they are going around collecting the
life-crew, hey?"
"That's
it, likely. Look! There's a fellow waving a little black flag. He's standing on
the steps of the omnibus. There come those other two fellows. Now they're all
talking together. Look at the fellow with the flag. Maybe he ain't waving
it."
"That
ain't a flag, is it? That's his coat. Why, certainly, that's his coat."
"So
it is. It's his coat. He's taken it off and is waving it around his head. But
would you look at him swing it."
"Oh,
say, there isn't any life-saving station there. That's just a winter resort
hotel omnibus that has brought over some of the boarders to see us drown."
"What's
that idiot with the coat mean? What's he signaling, anyhow?"
"It
looks as if he were trying to tell us to go north. There must be a life-saving
station up there."
"No!
He thinks we're fishing. Just giving us a merry hand. See? Ah, there,
Willie."
"Well,
I wish I could make something out of those signals. What do you suppose he
means?"
"He
don't mean anything. He's just playing."
"Well,
if he'd just signal us to try the surf again, or to go to sea and wait, or go
north, or go south, or go to hell -- there would be some reason in it. But look
at him. He just stands there and keeps his coat revolving like a wheel. The
ass!"
"There
come more people."
"Now
there's quite a mob. Look! Isn't that a boat?"
"Where?
Oh, I see where you mean. No, that's no boat."
"That
fellow is still waving his coat."
"He
must think we like to see him do that. Why don't he quit it. It don't mean
anything."
"I
don't know. I think he is trying to make us go north. It must be that there's a
life-saving station there somewhere."
"Say,
he ain't tired yet. Look at 'im wave."
"Wonder
how long he can keep that up. He's been revolving his coat ever since he caught
sight of us. He's an idiot. Why aren't they getting men to bring a boat out. A
fishing boat -- one of those big yawls -- could come out here all right. Why
don't he do something?"
"Oh,
it's all right, now."
"They'll
have a boat out here for us in less than no time, now that they've seen
us."
A faint
yellow tone came into the sky over the low land. The shadows on the sea slowly
deepened. The wind bore coldness with it, and the men began to shiver.
"Holy
smoke!" said one, allowing his voice to express his impious mood, "if
we keep on monkeying out here! If we've got to flounder out here all
night!"
"Oh,
we'll never have to stay here all night! Don't you worry. They've seen us now,
and it won't be long before they'll come chasing out after us."
The shore
grew dusky. The man waving a coat blended gradually into this gloom, and it
swallowed in the same manner the omnibus and the group of people. The spray,
when it dashed uproariously over the side, made the voyagers shrink and swear
like men who were being branded.
"I'd
like to catch the chump who waved the coat. I feel like soaking him one, just
for luck."
"Why?
What did he do?"
"Oh,
nothing, but then he seemed so damned cheerful."
In the
meantime the oiler rowed, and then the correspondent rowed, and then the oiler
rowed. Gray-faced and bowed forward, they mechanically, turn by turn, plied the
leaden oars. The form of the light-house had vanished from the southern horizon,
but finally a pale star appeared, just lifting from the sea. The streaked
saffron in the west passed before the all-merging darkness, and the sea to the
east was black. The land had vanished, and was expressed only by the low and
drear thunder of the surf.
"If
I am going to be drowned -- if I am going to be drowned -- if I am going to be
drowned, why, in the name of the seven mad gods, who rule the sea, was I
allowed to come thus far and contemplate sand and trees? Was I brought here
merely to have my nose dragged away as I was about to nibble the sacred cheese
of life?"
The
patient captain, drooped over the water-jar, was sometimes obliged to speak to
the oarsman.
"Keep
her head up! Keep her head up!"
"'Keep
her head up,' sir." The voices were weary and low.
This was
surely a quiet evening. All save the oarsman lay heavily and listlessly in the
boat's bottom. As for him, his eyes were just capable of noting the tall black
waves that swept forward in a most sinister silence, save for an occasional
subdued growl of a crest.
The
cook's head was on a thwart, and he looked without interest at the water under
his nose. He was deep in other scenes. Finally he spoke. "Billie," he
murmured, dreamfully, "what kind of pie do you like best?"
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