The
B-side of No. 44:
and the
ending of The Open Boat J
The Open
Boat
By
Stephen Crane
VII
When the
correspondent again opened his eyes, the sea and the sky were each of the gray
hue of the dawning. Later, carmine and gold was painted upon the waters. The
morning appeared finally, in its splendor with a sky of pure blue, and the
sunlight flamed on the tips of the waves.
On the
distant dunes were set many little black cottages, and a tall white wind-mill
reared above them. No man, nor dog, nor bicycle appeared on the beach. The
cottages might have formed a deserted village.
The
voyagers scanned the shore. A conference was held in the boat.
"Well," said the captain, "if no help is coming, we might better
try a run through the surf right away. If we stay out here much longer we will
be too weak to do anything for ourselves at all." The others silently
acquiesced in this reasoning. The boat was headed for the beach. The
correspondent wondered if none ever ascended the tall wind-tower, and if then
they never looked seaward. This tower was a giant, standing with its back to the
plight of the ants. It represented in a degree, to the correspondent, the
serenity of nature amid the struggles of the individual -- nature in the wind,
and nature in the vision of men. She did not seem cruel to him, nor beneficent,
nor treacherous, nor wise. But she was indifferent, flatly indifferent. It is,
perhaps, plausible that a man in this situation, impressed with the unconcern
of the universe, should see the innumerable flaws of his life and have them
taste wickedly in his mind and wish for another chance. A distinction between
right and wrong seems absurdly clear to him, then, in this new ignorance of the
grave-edge, and he understands that if he were given another opportunity he
would mend his conduct and his words, and be better and brighter during an
introduction, or at a tea.
"Now,
boys," said the captain, "she is going to swamp sure. All we can do
is to work her in as far as possible, and then when she swamps, pile out and
scramble for the beach. Keep cool now and don't jump until she swamps sure."
The oiler
took the oars. Over his shoulders he scanned the surf. "Captain," he
said, "I think I'd better bring her about, and keep her head-on to the
seas and back her in."
"All
right, Billie," said the captain. "Back her in." The oiler swung
the boat then and, seated in the stern, the cook and the correspondent were
obliged to look over their shoulders to contemplate the lonely and indifferent
shore.
The
monstrous inshore rollers heaved the boat high until the men were again enabled
to see the white sheets of water scudding up the slanted beach. "We won't
get in very close," said the captain. Each time a man could wrest his
attention from the rollers, he turned his glance toward the shore, and in the
expression of the eyes during this contemplation there was a singular quality.
The correspondent, observing the others, knew that they were not afraid, but
the full meaning of their glances was shrouded.
As for
himself, he was too tired to grapple fundamentally with the fact. He tried to
coerce his mind into thinking of it, but the mind was dominated at this time by
the muscles, and the muscles said they did not care. It merely occurred to him
that if he should drown it would be a shame.
There
were no hurried words, no pallor, no plain agitation. The men simply looked at
the shore. "Now, remember to get well clear of the boat when you
jump," said the captain.
Seaward
the crest of a roller suddenly fell with a thunderous crash, and the long white
comber came roaring down upon the boat.
"Steady
now," said the captain. The men were silent. They turned their eyes from
the shore to the comber and waited. The boat slid up the incline, leaped at the
furious top, bounced over it, and swung down the long back of the waves. Some
water had been shipped and the cook bailed it out.
But the
next crest crashed also. The tumbling boiling flood of white water caught the
boat and whirled it almost perpendicular. Water swarmed in from all sides. The
correspondent had his hands on the gunwale at this time, and when the water
entered at that place he swiftly withdrew his fingers, as if he objected to
wetting them.
The
little boat, drunken with this weight of water, reeled and snuggled deeper into
the sea.
"Bail
her out, cook! Bail her out," said the captain.
"All
right, captain," said the cook.
"Now,
boys, the next one will do for us, sure," said the oiler. "Mind to
jump clear of the boat."
The third
wave moved forward, huge, furious, implacable. It fairly swallowed the dingey,
and almost simultaneously the men tumbled into the sea. A piece of life-belt
had lain in the bottom of the boat, and as the correspondent went overboard he
held this to his chest with his left hand.
The
January water was icy, and he reflected immediately that it was colder than he
had expected to find it off the coast of Florida. This appeared to his dazed
mind as a fact important enough to be noted at the time. The coldness of the
water was sad; it was tragic. This fact was somehow mixed and confused with his
opinion of his own situation that it seemed almost a proper reason for tears.
The water was cold.
When he
came to the surface he was conscious of little but the noisy water. Afterward
he saw his companions in the sea. The oiler was ahead in the race. He was
swimming strongly and rapidly. Off to the correspondent's left, the cook's
great white and corked back bulged out of the water, and in the rear the
captain was hanging with his one good hand to the keel of the overturned
dingey.
There is
a certain immovable quality to a shore, and the correspondent wondered at it
amid the confusion of the sea.
It seemed
also very attractive, but the correspondent knew that it was a long journey,
and he paddled leisurely. The piece of life-preserver lay under him, and
sometimes he whirled down the incline of a wave as if he were on a hand-sled.
But
finally he arrived at a place in the sea where travel was beset with
difficulty. He did not pause swimming to inquire what manner of current had
caught him, but there his progress ceased. The shore was set before him like a
bit of scenery on a stage, and he looked at it and understood with his eyes
each detail of it.
As the
cook passed, much farther to the left, the captain was calling to him,
"Turn over on your back, cook! Turn over on your back and use the
oar."
"All
right, sir!" The cook turned on his back, and, paddling with an oar, went
ahead as if he were a canoe.
Presently
the boat also passed to the left of the correspondent with the captain clinging
with one hand to the keel. He would have appeared like a man raising himself to
look over a board fence, if it were not for the extraordinary gymnastics of the
boat. The correspondent marvelled that the captain could still hold to it.
They
passed on, nearer to shore -- the oiler, the cook, the captain -- and following
them went the water-jar, bouncing gayly over the seas.
The
correspondent remained in the grip of this strange new enemy -- a current. The
shore, with its white slope of sand and its green bluff, topped with little
silent cottages, was spread like a picture before him. It was very near to him
then, but he was impressed as one who in a gallery looks at a scene from Brittany
or Algiers.
He
thought: "I am going to drown? Can it be possible? Can it be possible? Can
it be possible?" Perhaps an individual must consider his own death to be
the final phenomenon of nature.
But later
a wave perhaps whirled him out of this small deadly current, for he found
suddenly that he could again make progress toward the shore. Later still, he
was aware that the captain, clinging with one hand to the keel of the dingey,
had his face turned away from the shore and toward him, and was calling his
name. "Come to the boat! Come to the boat!"
In his
struggle to reach the captain and the boat, he reflected that when one gets
properly wearied, drowning must really be a comfortable arrangement, a
cessation of hostilities accompanied by a large degree of relief, and he was
glad of it, for the main thing in his mind for some moments had been horror of
the temporary agony. He did not wish to be hurt.
Presently
he saw a man running along the shore. He was undressing with most remarkable
speed. Coat, trousers, shirt, everything flew magically off him.
"Come
to the boat," called the captain.
"All
right, captain." As the correspondent paddled, he saw the captain let
himself down to bottom and leave the boat. Then the correspondent performed his
one little marvel of the voyage. A large wave caught him and flung him with
ease and supreme speed completely over the boat and far beyond it. It struck
him even then as an event in gymnastics, and a true miracle of the sea. An
overturned boat in the surf is not a plaything to a swimming man.
The
correspondent arrived in water that reached only to his waist, but his
condition did not enable him to stand for more than a moment. Each wave knocked
him into a heap, and the under-tow pulled at him.
Then he
saw the man who had been running and undressing, and undressing and running,
come bounding into the water. He dragged ashore the cook, and then waded toward
the captain, but the captain waved him away, and sent him to the correspondent.
He was naked, naked as a tree in winter, but a halo was about his head, and he
shone like a saint. He gave a strong pull, and a long drag, and a bully heave
at the correspondent's hand. The correspondent, schooled in the minor formulae,
said: "Thanks, old man." But suddenly the man cried: "What's
that?" He pointed a swift finger. The correspondent said: "Go."
In the
shallows, face downward, lay the oiler. His forehead touched sand that was
periodically, between each wave, clear of the sea.
The
correspondent did not know all that transpired afterward. When he achieved safe
ground he fell, striking the sand with each particular part of his body. It was
as if he had dropped from a roof, but the thud was grateful to him.
It seems
that instantly the beach was populated with men with blankets, clothes, and
flasks, and women with coffee-pots and all the remedies sacred to their minds.
The welcome of the land to the men from the sea was warm and generous, but a
still and dripping shape was carried slowly up the beach, and the land's
welcome for it could only be the different and sinister hospitality of the
grave.
When it
came night, the white waves paced to and fro in the moonlight, and the wind
brought the sound of the great sea's voice to the men on shore, and they felt
that they could then be interpreters.
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